How hard is it for everyone to look one way??

Obviously, in my family, it is beyond hard, because no one can do it.

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So many times have I started to update this blog, only to get irritated, and frustrated and erase it. I have so much stuff going through my mind right now, that anything I try to do, it becomes a chore. My mind right now is pure chaos.

Two days from now I will be loading up the luggage and the children and be on my way to the airport. 2 more days. Where did the time go? I remember when I thought that I never would have been able to survive the 7 and a half months until time to go. And now here it is just a couple more hours (ok more than a couple of hours, but really not much).

My last day of work was the 5th of May. But I still went in 8 more times to work off the clock. Why? Well for a couple of reasons. I worked so that I could get some free food this last week for the kids, so I wouldn't have to cook. Although I am only taking advantage of it on Monday. I think the biggest reason I went was so that I would have something to do, instead of sitting here looking at the 4 walls all night long. I mean it isn't like I have a whole house to pack up/clean up for a move right?

What have I done to get ready for the move? Hmm...

• Monday night was the Panda Buffet with my landlord and his wife and kids. They are also good friends of ours. I worked Monday night too.
• Tuesday night was the Eastern Buffet with Gloria and the kids. I worked Tuesday night too. Milton also came over after work (12:45AM) and hung out until after 5AM, after he left, I went to sleep, and then was up at 7AM.
• Wednesday I was a grump all day and exhausted because I only got an hour of sleep the night before.. Wednesday night I wanted to go to bed early, but due to the fact that my ex-husband was coming by to get a dresser after work, I couldn't. (he gets off work at 12:30ish).
• Thursday was fill the trailer with trash and crap day. And I spent the day loading that up for a trip to the dump.
• Friday was meet my grandparents and my mom and Rob at the old country buffet for a good-bye dinner.
• Saturday was a take Jordan to her fathers and then come home and sit around the house day. Milton came over tonight at 10:30PM to get the TV, TiVo, entertainment table, and other odds and ends so that I would be less stressed. However he is so much like my husband, you wouldn't believe. He is talking to me on the phone, knowing I am stressed beyond belief, and he is giving me a hard time to piss me off. Just like Lale, I swear. I got so mad that I was crying. And for what? For nothing.
• Tomorrow is church and cleaning the house real well. But here it is 2:15AM and I am still sitting on the couch.
• Monday I have to go to the laundry mat to wash blankets and last minute clothes and what not. Oh yeah, and find someone to buy my crib, and see if who is supposed to buy my van still wants to buy it. And if not, find another person to buy it. HA. Good luck to me, right?

So as you can see, other than loading the trailer with stuff for the dump, I really haven't done much have I? Oh sure I have plans to clean tomorrow today, but lets see if I can procrastinate even more.

I am stressed. I just want for it to be over and done with and me on my way. I have people who are supposed to come and get stuff, and yet they still haven't, and that is adding to my stress. All I can say is, its a good thing I work well under pressure. I know come Monday night, I will be cleaning like crazy.

Once I leave though, don't expect an update until at least the 24th, if not later. I don't know if the first weekend if I will be able to make it to the internet cafe, but I will try.

I will have my camera and a notebook and pen though, to write about my trip - well as much of it as I can, since Levi will be on my lap for most of the trip. Should be fun, Myself, with 7 kids who have been up for most of the night (and who are kids that need 12 hours of sleep), on a 4 hour flight, then an hour layover, an hour long flight, another hour layover, then another hour long flight. Then getting myself, those same 7 children, who now have been up for more than a little bit, and who by then will probably be crazy, all my luggage (yes, all 16 peices of it - 800 pounds of luggage) through customs, and immigration to finally see my husband on the other side. Then we get to load up the luggage and the kids (who will be split into two - possibly more - different vehicles) and go on an hour and a half ride to my in-laws house, visit for a bit, then another half an hour or so to my house. I CANT BELIVE I WILL FINALLY BE ABLE TO SEE MY HOUSE!!!!! Then it is time to begin my life in Honduras. Time to get a schedule down.

But I will be writing blog material as each day goes by, I can promise you that ;) Oh and I promise pictures of my house too. Since no one ever sent me any... humph.