Friday, January 25, 2008

I bought my tickets

I got my tickets this morning....

My moving date is May 20th. Wow, it is not that far away. I am sitting here crying - not boohoo crying, but tears in my eyes crying. 115 days. Thats it. Is there really enough time to do everything? Seriously, thats crazy. A little over 16 weeks. While that seems like alot, it really isn't. I am going on a job interview for a job for the next 14 weeks. Lets hope I get it, and can make enough money to cover everything I need, and want.

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Things to do, things to do...

So much to do to get ready to move. Being a list making kind of girl I wrote out a list of things as they came into my head. The list is sort of in chronological order. It may be added to as I get closer. As I do each thing, I will cross it off. (this will be the first blog you will see until I leave - as I add a new blog post, you will see it below this one. I think you all would realize that, but since I didn't realize it on another persons blog until that person told me, I thought I would let you all know, just in case)

**for those who have made a major move like this, if you see anything missing on my list, or have any ideas/suggestions for me, please, please PLEASE let me know in the comment section**

My list is shown to the right - it has been moved just to make things less complicated :)

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Ready to go already

pictures of the streets of Tocoa that I found here

The end is so close, I can taste it. At this point, I feel like saying, screw it all, I am going and thats it. it seems the closer to moving day gets, the slower the time passes, and the more impatient I get. Unless someone says somethign to me about sharing a container, I am selling everything and going from there. Only what can fit in the van is what is going down. I am not going to stress myself out any more than I need to. So it looks like the van, the crib, tv, computer and thats about it. Some stuff is going to be sent down in boxes ahead of time. Clothes and what not. But thats it. I don't care anymore. I just want to be there already.

I want the warm weather, and pray that it helps my arthritis. I have arthritis in my right hand - and yes I am right handed. I already had a joint replacement surgery a little over a year ago, in my right hand, and now a different joint is swollen and stiff and hurts. My left foot for once has been ok. The medicine has been doing its job in keeping it pain free. It is a little bit swollen, but there is no pain, and thats what matters to me. And now my neck is bothering me. I have arthritis in my neck. That is something new. In the cold, my neck hurts, I hurt when I wake up, I hurt when I forget that it is stiff and try to turn my head to look at something. I just hurt. If feels like I slept on it wrong, but the stiffness and pain wont go away. So I need to see if my doctor will be willing to change up my prescriptions, or if I need a stronger dose or what.

I have gotten emails, and phone calls and lectures from people who know me, as well as those who don't.

I am tired of hearing everyones thoughts on me going to Honduras. I understand and appreciate that they are worried, and that they want the best for me and my children. But they don't understand that I want the same thing. I want what is best for my children. I don't talk about my worries much, as I am one who prefers to talk about good things, and I internalize my worries. That doesn't mean I don't think of them. I know that the schooling in Honduras is way way behind the schooling in US. I understand that the whole culture in general is different. I understand that I have to keep a close watch on my children. I do that now, so you can believe that when we are in a different place, with new people, and a different culture for girls, and things along that line, that my kids will be right there with me. They will be allowed to go out and play and what not, but they are not going to be out running the streets.

I am doing what I feel is the best for my children. I want them to experience different cultures, I want them to see with their own eyes that money and THINGS aren't everything. We will be living on alot of land, with animals, and it is going to be a busy farm life. They will be working hard, (learning work ethic) and learning alot. All of this is important to me. One of the MAIN reasons that we are going right now is because that is where my husband, their dad is. My children deserve to grow up with their mother and father there. Andre's biological father wants nothing to do with him - he hasnt seen him (other than when we went for the DNA test for child support) since Andre was 6 months old. He is now 12. Jordan's father loves her and wants to spend time with her. All of this happened within the 18 months or so. Before that, while he loved his daughter, he put drinking and his friends above everything and everyone else. My husband has been there for 7 years. A little over half of Andre's life, most of Jordan's life, and all of the other ones lives. He WANTS to be in their lives, and he worries about them. Thats what my children deserve.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008


In one of my previous posts - I talked about a blogger friend of mine, Andee, who lives in Mexico. I put a link up to her blog to show off her beautiful pictures.

Well I found out today by reading La Gringa's blog, that Andee has passed away. According to what La Gringa has posted, it seems she passed away from possibly a stroke.

Andee always would send me encouragine emails, and talk to me and give me lots of support. One of her favorite things to say to me was Just go to Honduras now. Don't worry about anything else, just follow your heart and go. She will be missed.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

The countdown just got shorter - by how much I dont know

I was checking prices and flight information again - I do that often, just as a way to pass the time - and the flights for June 24th, the day I planned on going - have gone up $100 to almost $640 per person - and there are 8 of us that I have to buy tickets for. I was freaking out because I was planning on using my tax return to get the tickets, and that is more than my tax return is. Not by much, but still over. So I was playing around and putting in different dates and if I leave on June 3rd are almost half as much. They come to $327 or something close to it. I dont remember the exact amount, as I was so excited to see how low that was, LOL. I get my tax return on the 25th of this month, and I hope that the price doesn't change so that I can buy the tickets. I am even more excited because I can use the left over to get the passports - both US and Honduran, so that is saving me from having to use my working money. Now I just want the 25th to hurry up and get here so that I can change my countdown ticker and see the numbers drop alot!

Levi is two months old, and so freakin fat it isnt funny. On the 2nd he had his 2 month appointment, and he weighed in at 15 pounds and 3 oz. My poor baby, you can tell we don't feed him, LOL.

(ok, I just went back and watched the two videos that follow, and I really do clean my house. It seems like when I have the camera its a disaster - but really I do clean it)

Lana is such a sweet little girl. She is learning how to ask for things nicely, and how to deal with her brothers and sisters like a nice little girl should. NOT. She IS talking alot more though. Having so many older brothers and sisters she has learned alot of new important words and phrases. Some of the recent ones she has learned. Mine, Get Off, Give it to me, Let Go, Go Away, I want it.

Here you can see how she puts some of those phrases to work. Johan has a ball, and wont let her have it. At the beginning of the video you can hear her saying I want the ball, and at the end she is saying Let GO! She is getting better at how she treats Johan though, because normally she wouldn't keep asking, she would have decked him within the first 10 seconds or though. (and yes I know it is dark - I dont have very bright lights in my bedroom)

And just because I think she is so cute, here she is dancing

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

conversations in the car

The other day I was driving in the car with the kids, and out of nowhere Andre says to me "Mom. when you get old I wont put you in a nursing home"

After explaining to Jordan that it was a nursing home, and not a nursery home, Andre and I continued our conversation.

So what are you going to do with me then?

You can live with me.

Why? So that when I am old, I still have to wash your clothes and cook you food and clean up after you, and your wife and all your kids?

laughing he said
MOOOOOOOOOM. No I will take care of you. You will be old, so you just have to sit and watch Jeopardy.
*Jeopardy? I don't watch that now - why would I want to watch it when I'm old???*

Will you take care of all of my needs?

Yes mom I will.

Even change my diaper?

WHAT? You don't wear a diaper.

Yeah, not now, but what if when I am old, I need to wear an adult diaper. Will you change my diaper?

Um. no, thats gross.

So you are going to leave me in a pee pee and poopy diaper all day long? Eww not only is that more gross, that says there is no love there. Plus I changed all of your gross diapers.

I wont let you sit in a pee pee and poopy diaper all day either Mom, I promise.

So who is going to change my diaper?

I don't know, but it isn't going to be me.
I never did find out who was going to change my diaper.

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Just call me Mrs MacGyver

Sorry I haven't been on since my last post. I have been meaning to, but this past week has been crazy busy :) I wanted to say thank you to all of you who emailed me and let me know you were worried about me. Now that the holidays are over, and life has gone back to its busy busy self, I am ok again.
My room is somewhat of a mess, and I had been thinking about cleaning it out, but after thinking some more about it, I figured that I would clean out my purse instead. (you know, the whole new year, fresh start thinking). I sat down on the floor and pulled out a couple of peices of papers, and realized at that rate, I would never get it done, so I just dumped the purse upside down, got everything out of it, and put it in piles to go through. Can I say I had a TON of crap in there. And my purse isn't that big. Did you ever watch the old "Lets make a deal" and at the end the host would say he would give $100 to the person that had such and such in their purse? I could probably make money on that show most days, LOL.
Here is a list of what was in there...
  • 1 camcorder battery
  • 2 toy cars
  • 1 passport
  • 1 white bird
  • checkbooks for two closed checking accounts
  • 1 date planner
  • 1 pedometer
  • 1 bottle of my migraine meds
  • old car payment book that is no longer valid (the acct number has changed)
  • carmex lip stuff - that I can never find when I want to use it
  • cell phone
  • Nivea
  • $20 Giant gift card, that only has $4 on it
  • KFC paystub of my DH, from March 2007
  • Child Support Receipt book
  • 3 empty envelopes
  • bank statements from those closed account listed above
  • Creative Hands Foam World Glue
  • 5 striped paperclips
  • staple remover
  • 1 book (not in the picture)
  • 1 top to the package of Disney Princess Stick N Lift
  • 1 Barbie sticker
  • 1 pair nail clippers
  • my wallet
  • a 3 line triplex phone line adapter
  • 3 ponytail holders
  • 12 different pensa and pencils
  • $1.43 in change
  • 1 phillips screw driver
  • a screen spline tool (the thing with 2 rollers on it)
  • 5 CD's in the case
  • 1 Shark Tales DVD
  • 1 CD (PM Dawn anyone??)
  • CD with I dont know what on it
  • Formula Checks
  • memorabilia from 3 different dat nights with my husband from 2005/2006
  • 1 car insurance payment letter
  • 1 car payment letter
  • 1 used phone card
  • various receipts
  • 3 receipts for me to send in with a rebate, that had to be postmarked by september 1st, 2007
  • application for I dont know what
  • a bunch of paper and just trash