Monday, May 5, 2008

More Goodbyes...

Well over the last couple of days my brother in law, Milton, stopped by as well as my nephew, Carlos. Both came by to say good-bye and so that I could take some pictures of them for their family in Honduras.

It was nice and we all hung out for a bit. The kids got to play with their uncle and cousin. It is sad, because they are such a big part of my family, and I am going to miss them so much. The kids will too. The kids love when they come over to play with all of them. They both work so much, but still try to get over here a couple of times a month. Who knows when we will see them again. Both Milton and Carlos have been here since early 2004, so really none of the little ones can remember a time without them. Mickey was barely 1. Isa was just a baby, Johan, Lana, and Levi weren't even born yet. So while they may not realize that its going to be awhile, I do. And that makes me sad. Jordan and Andre are sad that they have to say goodbye to them. In the picture with Carlos, Jordan did her best to not smile, as she was going back and forth between being sad to say good-bye, and being happy and goofing off with Carlos. Andre didn't want to take pictures with Carlos or Milton. He does his best to forget that we have to say goodbye, so if he doesn't take pictures he figures that he isn't saying goodbye. He is alot like his mother that way. If we ignore it, maybe it wont happen. Or saying goodbye will be easier to deal with, LOL.

Here are slide shows of the kids enjoying their uncle and cousin. Isn't Milton such a cutie? Ever since the first time I met him, I have had a mini crush on him. (not a bad crush, LOL. Like a schoolgirl crush. He is just a cutie.)

MILTON





CARLOS






I also cried for the first time today. Well not cried for the first time ever, but cried for the first time in relation to my moving. I was talking to my mom about why Rob was acting like a jerk, and she said well he sometimes does that when he doesn't know how to handle the situation. Meaning me moving. So I said well is he upset because we are leaving, or because of how hard it is going to be for you. And she didn't say anything. Which, in our family only means one thing. Tears. I told her to stop because I couldn't handle her crying. And I can't. I am going to do my share of it in Honduras because I am so going to miss her. She is like my best friend. We talk ALL the time. I mean, like 5+ times a day. I wont be able to do that in Honduras. It will be more like once a week or so. I think that is going to be the biggest and hardest adjustment for me. Actually I know it will be the biggest adjustment for me. Up until today I have been blocking it out of my mind, and I have been fine. So now I am trying to put it back to wherever it was, so that I don't think about it. But it is hard.

9 comments:

Amie Vaughan said...

It looks like y'all had a great time together; I'm so glad for you for that. I hate saying goodbyes, too. I'm such a crybaby! So I completely sympathise with you-- I'm thinking of y'all and praying for y'all! =D

Andrea said...

Wow, Milton looks so much like your husband it's scary!! Well at least in pictures they do! It's always so sad to say goodbyes. But the distance between you is just geography, you will still be with each other in heart. My parents and brother and sisters are 2000 miles away from me.

I hope you will still be able to blog when you are down there!! I really would love to see the farm and you doing laundry!! I would some how sneak my washer down there!! :)

elsuenoamericano said...

Milton is a cutie!! I like he looks an awful lot like Lale!

Saying good bye must be so hard, and I'm sorry. I'm praying for you guys that the adjustment is as painless as possible. The kids will have lots more tios and primos and their Papa once your in Honduras. It will take some getting used to, but they'll love it.

And I'm with Andrea! I hope SO much that you keep blogging once you're there!!! :)

My3Ro's said...

Crying just shows you are human. Lots of tears will be shed but know you are making the right decision for you and your family. Distance only brings the heart closer together. Email me if you need me I am here for you.

Adrians Mama said...

Awww the pics are cute! And i understand how hard it will be for you not to talk with your mom but once a week i would totally be the same way!!!!

Honduras Sprout said...

These are difficult but precious days because your heart is feeling so strongly. I've been reading these Irish novels (thanks to Trish!) and when the immigrants would set sail to the United States they would have a "wake" to send them off. Basically with the knowledge that they would probably never see them again. It put things in perspective for me because next month I get to go visit and I can call and IM with my family. So I feel lucky too even though I miss them so much. I hope that you can get internet out where you are and then you can set up skype and you can talk as much as you can to you mom...well, at least as long as the internet is working.

You have my number too :O).

Heather said...

OMG I can not believe the time has really come. Good byes are had, i say them all the time, but the Hello are 10 times better and worth all the heart ache, I know you already know this but it helps when others say it too, lol!
-h

LaGringaMasBella said...

OMG! Where's my comment? I swear I left one ... anyway, I'm praying that you and your mom will find a way to communicate regularly.

It will be hard adjusting.

And Carlos is a cutie! (Lale and Milton look so much alike it's scary)

Take care Jennifer, you know where I am if you need an ear.

-Lisa :)

Angela said...

Hey,Jennifer,

I'm sure the next few days are going to be very emotional & exciting. It's always so difficult starting a new chapter in your life, espcially when there's so much change. I know you wouldn't be going if you didn't feel it was right for you & your family. Just know that many people will be here thinking of you & praying for you & your family.
I wish you the very best of luck in Honduras! Live it up!

~Angela
TN Girl/Olancho in '09!